Lately I've been thinking bout the future and where I want to be....
All my life I have moved around, I have been to so many schools it hits double figures. I never have enough in one place, my head and my heart yearn to explore, I wish I hadn't of wasted so much time just working and getting no where. I am lucky to have experienced so many amazing places, I've lived in remote locations in the middle of the desert, I have flown overseas and spent time in the USA, I have been to 6 countries and I know to some that is not a lot, but to others they haven't even left the state they live in. I am lucky and fortunate in so many ways, and I know this, I am glad for this, but I want so much more, I want the world, I want to see it all. and people tell me that I have been so many places and seen a lot, but it will never be enough, anyone who has traveled knows this, anyone with that bug, knows that it will never be enough, to just settle in one place is so hard. It's like settling into a life that is second best, and no one wants to live like that. I am fortunate, I am single I am not tied down with major debt, and I do not have children. People like me, who are nomads at heart, they always want to find a place to call home, a place to settle down and live a happy comfortable life, but they know, as well as I do that deep down that nothing like that exists for them.... They will always want more out of life and travelling never ends. I believe for me that it will be a long time before I find some peace and not want to move.
I am a master packer, ask anyone, I once packed up a house and all my belongings into a car in less than a day....once I make the decision to go, it doesn't go away, I end up like a time bomb ticking, I would hate to see it explode, would be messy. So this time around I am off to WA and its the biggest move I have made in my life but it has been on the cards for 12 months, and as time ticks away and the move date comes closer, I don't feel nervous or scared about the drive, I feel most scared about what happens once I get there. Will I stay for long, will I travel more, so many questions that will be answered in time... I have plans to travel more, but until I'm set up I need to keep those plans in check, there is a long time to go before I can take off flying again. Will this be my new home, or will I end up back here in the town I have spent most of my years on and off? As much as I love this place and my friends, its really not the place I want to settle for, its unhealthy and people only seem to care about how much money they make, how much they can drink. how big their muscles are and how many pills they popped on the weekend, not a healthy environment at all. where will I be in 5 years? I sometimes feel like a lost dog, wandering around aimlessly.... I still haven't found my forever home, I wonder if I will...
All my life I have moved around, I have been to so many schools it hits double figures. I never have enough in one place, my head and my heart yearn to explore, I wish I hadn't of wasted so much time just working and getting no where. I am lucky to have experienced so many amazing places, I've lived in remote locations in the middle of the desert, I have flown overseas and spent time in the USA, I have been to 6 countries and I know to some that is not a lot, but to others they haven't even left the state they live in. I am lucky and fortunate in so many ways, and I know this, I am glad for this, but I want so much more, I want the world, I want to see it all. and people tell me that I have been so many places and seen a lot, but it will never be enough, anyone who has traveled knows this, anyone with that bug, knows that it will never be enough, to just settle in one place is so hard. It's like settling into a life that is second best, and no one wants to live like that. I am fortunate, I am single I am not tied down with major debt, and I do not have children. People like me, who are nomads at heart, they always want to find a place to call home, a place to settle down and live a happy comfortable life, but they know, as well as I do that deep down that nothing like that exists for them.... They will always want more out of life and travelling never ends. I believe for me that it will be a long time before I find some peace and not want to move.
I am a master packer, ask anyone, I once packed up a house and all my belongings into a car in less than a day....once I make the decision to go, it doesn't go away, I end up like a time bomb ticking, I would hate to see it explode, would be messy. So this time around I am off to WA and its the biggest move I have made in my life but it has been on the cards for 12 months, and as time ticks away and the move date comes closer, I don't feel nervous or scared about the drive, I feel most scared about what happens once I get there. Will I stay for long, will I travel more, so many questions that will be answered in time... I have plans to travel more, but until I'm set up I need to keep those plans in check, there is a long time to go before I can take off flying again. Will this be my new home, or will I end up back here in the town I have spent most of my years on and off? As much as I love this place and my friends, its really not the place I want to settle for, its unhealthy and people only seem to care about how much money they make, how much they can drink. how big their muscles are and how many pills they popped on the weekend, not a healthy environment at all. where will I be in 5 years? I sometimes feel like a lost dog, wandering around aimlessly.... I still haven't found my forever home, I wonder if I will...
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