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Deal to Feel

I have come to realise lately that I am not in the frame of mind to commit, let alone find love. I have had some pretty crappy relationships, and the last 2 meaningful ones didn't end well. Not on my part, but men seem to find it hard to be honest and easier to lie. If you lie, you are giving another person a false answer, a false ending. I know I had that false ending, and never had the closure I deserved. It ended with me thinking I was not good enough, being told they didn't want a relationship, yet moved straight into a new one like our time together meant nothing. That hurt more than any physical pain, it destroyed me, and my trust for men. I have not even bothered since, because what is the point when my track record proves that I am not worthy of love from a partner, I am not worthy of honesty. what is the point?? I don't know what the point of a relationship is but to reproduce. I am happy on my own, I have great friends and family to keep me occupied. but there is...